i want to feel like my hand's a part of me again

i wanted to push past the surface but

no not as much as i could try

you can't break a body
you see there simply is nothing
there it never stops
going in and coming
out the other end

that's no body i can't find
the line to divide us at all

catastrophic desire a tragedy
only if you see no answer possible
in all your years of searching

if i take it far enough i start
to see myself pattern you
your head bends forward and
maybe for a second i could