here, jita, let me get that for you

my hands are the lurid white of a tourist's
but
a man called me his "hijita" today
opened the door for me and called me
his daughter, here:
where I am the pale dust
of a foreigner
in this neighborhood of
earth

If it were up to me

I hate that all I can think
to write about
is how dissatisfied I am
with my hair.

If it were up to me
I'd have one room in my house
That was so full of pillows
that you couldn't find the floor.

And when I was tired of my existence being acknowledged
I'd dive in face first
and drown myself in goose feathers
and polyester.

jesus...

I've been staring at this baby for an hour
do something, baby

your mom would sell the house
before losing you

moi? i say they let you suffer
a life not lived is not worth ending
so they say

now, you're harsh
go easy on me

you eat eggs

not homicidal, No

man vs. himself

I said aloud to myself

(i'm a bit batty you see have been for years)

up a bit too high on my horse

a dollface! of course

'you emit waves of internal conflict'

he smiled at me

because I am completely helpless

up on my horse

I turn the light off at

12:17.

The air of the room

is still and hot.

Through the open window,

I hear the soundtrack

of a city--

ambulance wails.

man shouts.

subwoofer cracks windows.

plastic bags tumble.

It won't let me sleep,

so I get up and walk to the mirror

like a zombie.

I look at myself and say,

go to sleep

you mediocre fuckup.

4Loko is not a meal

your giant watch may glimmer in the fall sun

luck, it may be on your side, skybiker

well slept greasy hair, thick eyeliner

cursing halfgrinned, fair skin, what things to behold today

you pedalpeddle around under the impression that

an organic coffee drink brings all the bois

to the yard

you've been dreaming about Oprah again,

haven't you

"I am destined to be alone,"
He says as he drinks Miller light
Imagine him in his large, empty house
His dog resting her head on his knee
as he looks around the bedroom
and I am just so very glad that
he has shaved his mustache off.