waiting

I was lying on the floor after doing push-ups and pretending you were right next to me. When I opened my eyes I saw a chair wheel.

Eventually I got up and put on sad music. Piano looped. A wonderful exacerbation of my symptoms.

I looked in the mirror. The skin under my eyes continued to darken.

setting

drive until you see the left sign
flicking flies from hair and shoulders
to sit in a chair while an Asian woman
gingerly rubs your feet with hot rocks
clips off shitty cuticle, paints flowers
on small metal disks they inserted
where your toenails were.
mani pedi backrub lotioned
with nietzsche and pepsi foaming
hair left long cause of something like spite
seeping acetone doze in vaporous smolders
it's afternoon, the television screams, nobody talks

"open relationship"

my knees are bruised I've got
too slick of shoes I've got a
bright flashing light where my memory should be

Don't expect me to be around in the day
I'm not a part of the rush hour traffic
I'll only
come in when everyone else is asleep
I'll always
leave before the sun rises

because that sun dies the sky and I bled on the sheets
as if someone else could ever face my blood by the light of day

why you gotta sit there
feeling all the sorry for yourself
and save none for me

why you gotta shoot your
big green fireballs into the sky
aint care where they land up

why you gotta work all day all night
steaming dumplings for someone else
and never worry though I been gone, gone

your arm is around me sincere for the first time and i want to live here, i think
wrapped in your sweater a cold beer between us your head heavy over mine my
cheeks red not sure from embarrassment or alcohol but this is what i wanted more
than anything else in the world i want you